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I’m in such a weird mood. I’m painfully aware of all of my responsibilities but have zero motivation to complete things. I have no focus and keep having mood swings. I’m balls deep in depression and I’m trying so hard to pull myself out of it but I’m so fucking tired. I’ve put on weight and I’m disappointed because I don’t feel good health wise. I also hate my clothes because nothing fits me. I feel like I’m spiraling out of control. I need to get back on my shots. I lost my insurance for a while and now I have insurance again but I don’t know if I’ll have it for long because of reasons I don’t want to get into right now, but I still can’t afford my hormones because they went from being totally covered to only being 30% covered. So my hormones are still $100 and we just don’t have that. We’ve been struggling financially and emotionally for a few months now and we’ve had help from my parents, but I’m freaking out because I feel like I’ve let people down. I need to wake up. But even though I’m feeling all these shitty feelings. I’m still happy. I’m still hopeful that this shit will subside and I’ll be light hearted again. I’m still so grateful for having a roof over my head and food in my belly and I get to lay in bed next to the love of my life every night. I’m so happy to have my pups and our little demon that lurks in the corner. It’s a new year and before I know it another year is gonna pass. I wonder what this year will bring. I hope lower surgery happens in 2020. So I think I’ll make this year about preparing for that. #ftmtransgender #ftm #transgender #transguy #depression #hope #gratitude #2019
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